14 And God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.” And He said, “Thus you shall say to the children of Israel, ‘I AM has sent me to you.’
10 But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them—yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me.
All this time in my blindness I have wondered where I have been, and how did I get to where I am from where I was? It seemed I hadn’t done anything particularly wrong, but where had my sight, my wisdom, my power, my courage, my fire, my anointing gone? My perspective had been flipped somehow and I began to realize man’s tendency towards narcissistic self-centeredness, that I could ignorantly think for even a moment that I had earned such things by my own righteousness or that they were ever mine. For when I finally examined and sought the truth without trying to justify myself I began to remember what it felt like when such things were in my possession. It was refreshing and humbling to remember that indeed nothing of the things that I had listed were ever mine. It was always HIS sight, HIS courage, HIS wisdom, HIS power, HIS fire, and HIS anointing, NOTHING OF ME. Earned not by my righteousness or my merit but according to HIS grace. If I only remembered how imperfect my beginnings were and that it was HIS cross that adorns all who would believe upon HIM with HIS perfection. Indeed I have been continually frustrated that I ever even considered this, or sinning and grieving God’s Spirit as many times as I have, o’ that I would have rather been destroyed than to have sinned against my God, but He is faithful to use that which was meant for evil for the good of those that love Him and repent from a rent and contrite heart desiring never to fall into the same trap again. What a foolish man I am, but to declare this truth, has freed me, and revealed that I am nothing but that Christ is all. Indeed we all have our buffets of tribulation, our own thorns and crosses to bear, it is allowed so that we are kept humble, as He is meek, and kept from destuction in the end. For this and all things we give exceeding great thanks to our God for His long suffering and patience with us, but in prayer and self-denial seek through loving obedience towards Him that He would have no need to be.
The enemy knows our weaknesses, and that God is our strength. He tempts us in order that he might condemn us, and therefore distract us and draw us out from our protector. We needn’t be insecure about who we are if we are in Christ. Do not strive for emulations or vain glory. Be who He has called you to be even if some are great while others are lesser, remember that it is the least that shall be the greatest, so fear not what any say to you, your purpose is in the Most High’s hands.
We must remember that it was God who spoke everything into existence and formed us from the beginning for His purpose. In faith we must remember that whatever God has created us to be is greater than anything we can conceive. You should know by now that everything I have written is because I also needed to hear it, and that I am greater than no one. In fact we all are less than nothing without HIM because GOD is more than ALL. Unlike the world, where people are divided by economic status, or upbringing our potential is all the same in the Messiah regardless of past whether it be good or bad in the eyes of men. HIS love is more, and it is certainly His desire to fill every human being with HIS perfect Spirit that all may partake in His perfection, but may we remember its HIS gift to give. Let give praises unto our maker, for a man does not compliment a tree for good fruit, but the planter and steward of it. Thank Lord God that you bring all unto completion by your grace, and that it is nothing of us.